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Today has been an indulgent day. A day off work. A run with my personal running coach. A morning sightseeing with my sister. An afternoon massage. A bath. A nice dinner out. In bed by 8.30pm. I needed it. But it still feels selfish. And that’s not an isolated feeling.

I often feel guilty for how self-indulgent this marathon journey has been.

I KNOW the analogies about putting on your own oxygen mask first. I KNOW that if I want to give energy and love to the world, I’ve got to first give it to myself. But this has been exceptional, relentless and very public.

I’ve found money, time, focus and energy I didn’t know I had. And day in and day out I’ve shared things here – on a public forum! – that I would normally feel uncomfortable sharing with my closest of friends.

I can’t take any of this back. I’m investing everything. And in the deep dark recesses of my mind, I fear that I’m not enough. That it will all be for nothing. And I feel guilty for wasting this opportunity that someone else could have had to change their life. To be the best they can be.

I know this is complete bollocks. I will make this happen. And succeed or fail I am not holding anyone else back. But if you can relate to these baseless beliefs in any way, shape or form – please do me a favour:

Do something completely loving and indulgent for yourself.

I deserve this time to take care of myself. But you do too.

And if there is anything I can do to help you, just shout. We can feelgood about ourselves together.

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